Slow It Down

[jollyolmelancholy]

"I have all this power, and feel so weak"




I have my kingdom

I have my paradise

I have my Loving hearth

But something still isn't right

This is a never ending fight

These butterflies take flight

They ascend to my heart, and through my soul

They've replaced my hate, and made me whole

They gave me my control!


I held the reigns for once

The horse was strong

And the ride smooth

But I still haven't gotten the groove

The feeling that makes me want to move

Makes me want to feel good

Makes me want everything right

But there's still hate left

Feelings I just can't fight

And they continue to bite

Eat away at my life

I can't raise the sword

So I fall in strife


They make me reflect on my life

And I die a little in my sorrow

There's a bright day for everyone

For me, there is not tomorrow

Are these feelings borrowed

Or are they the actual me

I just want to come to terms

I just want them released


I can't stand feeling this way

And no one can ever tell

The facade is baking beautiful

And inside is hell

If you look closely you hear wails

You'll never get through this shell

All those that have come closed have failed

Its the ultimate story to tell

So my soul I might sale

Just to simply feel good

So I don't walk around hurt

Feeling misunderstood

Ever since child hood
I was taught to stand strong, be tall

Little did I know as adult

I would feel the greatest fall

The one to beat them all

No one came to my call!


I was all alone and in pain

My head was unclear

I was going insane

All I knew was a game

And I had run out of currency

Call an ambulance please

This is a baking emergency

Set up the funeral now

The man I am is gone

He doesn't care anymore

He can no longer carry on

Get my hearse ready now

Tell my family lollipop em all

Because they lied to me this whole time

I could never stand tall

Because there was a baking wall

Built by dreams and false realities

They made me pure

Was a prolonged fatality


I just want to know who I am

I just want to know why I'm here

I just want my path shown

I want my sight crystal clear

I was taught Family over friends

But I know that's a bunch of gumdrop
I'd baking kill them all with a chance

Would be the cleanest hit

Stab my brother in the head

Maybe that would clear his mind

Maybe make him see the fault in his ways

Make his soul sublime

Id stab my mom in the heart

Her love was unclear and hesitant

She should've left me on the road

That was her time better Spent

Id chop off my sisters limbs

And let her see life the way shes living

Let her understand shes going no where

Let her see freedom is a given

Id cut my dads balls off

So he can no longer spawn plagues

He's the creator of my world

Hes the reason I hate my days

He was never there anyway

So why should I care

I hate that baking crippled smile

I hate the baldness of his hair

But I see myself in him now

And the baking feeling hurts

Hes a lazy sack of gumdrop

Never did a day of honest work

All he did was make excuses

And tell his kids lies

We'd sit there waiting for his affection

While my mother sat and cried

I would've baking died!

As I watched her suffer

So I took his role up

I was no longer just a brother

I became the man of my fort

And took the reigns riding strong

But this was a facade you see

And it didn't last long


Here I am

Right now

And I'm trying to slow it down

I need to check myself for the cure

I need to get out of this town

Here I am

Right now

And I'm trying to slow it down

I need to clean myself up

And wipe away this frown

Here I am

Right now

And I'm trying to slow it down

I need to be as strong as possible

And show me that I can win

That I can fight

That I can Love

That I won't Hate

That I am strong

That I am a Man

That I can be a provider

That I can be trusted

That I am a Fighter

That I can be full

On Life and Love

I need to slow it down

I need to slow it down

I Need.......to........slow...........it..................down